Misfit

  • Track 1: Misfit

    They ask me how you cope with depression
    What a question
    Self-deprecation
    Cause making fun helps get me through days faster
    A fine distraction 
    Although I do get growing pains 
    I'm on my knees 
    Seems like I need to see a doctor to fix things
    My father said
    rearrange have placement find order.
    But that ain't me?
    In my head chaos reins over order
    Might be a mess but
    I'm not pretending 
    I'm just in need of mending 
    Meditating on what true happiness is?
    It's a fleeting feeling 
    You catch it 
    It disappears
    Wish it worked the same way with my fears
    Still drowning underneath.
    Holes leaking
    I know that shit freaky 
    People still come to see me cause they feel the shit within me seeping
    Why can't my folks just see this shit is me
    Why can't my attitude come across clearly
    And why can't I post up how I'm feeling
    Sometime this shit affects me 
    Why can't I feel free have room to just breath 
    Why can't I feel free have room to just breath

    I'm a misfit baby
    I can't change just yet
    Let me be 
    Let me find myself 
    I'm a misfit
    I'm a misfit
    I'm a misfit
    I'm a misfit baby

    A constant need for satisfaction
    A fixation it devours you 
    Why keep myself tied down
    When I could be free
    Spirited away with the ghosts of my past whispering down my neck
    Will I ever be good enough
    Guess not
    So maybe there are many outcomes and possibilities 
    If not positive get caught in negativity 
    I’m stripped away of an identity 
    I created now hated by those around me
    Relatives ain’t relative
    No presents for my birthday
    No presents from pretenders
    Who never cared
    Who never spared a moment of time
    Why spend a moment of mind
    Seems like commitment to something that was never fine
    Seems like commitment to something that was never mine
    Seems like commitment to something that was never fine
    That was never mine to begin with

    I'm a misfit baby
    I can't change just yet 
    Let me be 
    Let me find myself 
    I'm a misfit
    I'm a misfit
    I'm a misfit 
    I'm a misfit baby 
    I can't change just yet 
    Let me be 
    Let me find myself 
    I'm a misfit
    I'm a misfit 
    I'm a misfit 
    I'm a misfit baby 

    I messed up again
    Spending too much money on friends 
    To keep em close
    Givin’ them reason to stick around
    Yeah I know I shouldn't be proud 
    But haven't you been faced with a choice to be left alone
    Or to be kept with friendly faces who embrace you?
    In a small room I'm fucking lonely
    Keep me on my own and the voices started talking 
    Like in my head some messed up things are said like
    Like shit
    I’m a misfit
    Nobody likes me cause I'm different
    Like shit
    I’m a misfit
    Nobody likes me ’cause I'm different
    ’Cause I’m motherfucking different

    I'm a misfit baby
    I can't change just yet 
    Let me be 
    Let me find myself 
    I'm a misfit
    I'm a misfit
    I'm a misfit 
    I'm a misfit baby 
    I can't change just yet 
    Let me be 
    Let me find myself 
    I'm a misfit
    I'm a misfit
    I'm a misfit
    I'm a misfit baby 
    I’m a misfit
    I’m a misfit
    Nobody likes me ’cause I’m different
    I’m a misfit
    I’m a misfit
    I’m a misfit
    I'm a misfit baby