Track 1: Misfit

They ask me how you cope with depression
What a question
Self-deprecation
Cause making fun helps get me through days faster
A fine distraction 
Although I do get growing pains 
I'm on my knees 
Seems like I need to see a doctor to fix things
My father said
rearrange have placement find order.
But that ain't me?
In my head chaos reins over order
Might be a mess but
I'm not pretending 
I'm just in need of mending 
Meditating on what true happiness is?
It's a fleeting feeling 
You catch it 
It disappears
Wish it worked the same way with my fears
Still drowning underneath.
Holes leaking
I know that shit freaky 
People still come to see me cause they feel the shit within me seeping
Why can't my folks just see this shit is me
Why can't my attitude come across clearly
And why can't I post up how I'm feeling
Sometime this shit affects me 
Why can't I feel free have room to just breath 
Why can't I feel free have room to just breath

I'm a misfit baby
I can't change just yet
Let me be 
Let me find myself 
I'm a misfit
I'm a misfit
I'm a misfit
I'm a misfit baby

A constant need for satisfaction
A fixation it devours you 
Why keep myself tied down
When I could be free
Spirited away with the ghosts of my past whispering down my neck
Will I ever be good enough
Guess not
So maybe there are many outcomes and possibilities 
If not positive get caught in negativity 
I’m stripped away of an identity 
I created now hated by those around me
Relatives ain’t relative
No presents for my birthday
No presents from pretenders
Who never cared
Who never spared a moment of time
Why spend a moment of mind
Seems like commitment to something that was never fine
Seems like commitment to something that was never mine
Seems like commitment to something that was never fine
That was never mine to begin with

I'm a misfit baby
I can't change just yet 
Let me be 
Let me find myself 
I'm a misfit
I'm a misfit
I'm a misfit 
I'm a misfit baby 
I can't change just yet 
Let me be 
Let me find myself 
I'm a misfit
I'm a misfit 
I'm a misfit 
I'm a misfit baby 

I messed up again
Spending too much money on friends 
To keep em close
Givin’ them reason to stick around
Yeah I know I shouldn't be proud 
But haven't you been faced with a choice to be left alone
Or to be kept with friendly faces who embrace you?
In a small room I'm fucking lonely
Keep me on my own and the voices started talking 
Like in my head some messed up things are said like
Like shit
I’m a misfit
Nobody likes me cause I'm different
Like shit
I’m a misfit
Nobody likes me ’cause I'm different
’Cause I’m motherfucking different

I'm a misfit baby
I can't change just yet 
Let me be 
Let me find myself 
I'm a misfit
I'm a misfit
I'm a misfit 
I'm a misfit baby 
I can't change just yet 
Let me be 
Let me find myself 
I'm a misfit
I'm a misfit
I'm a misfit
I'm a misfit baby 
I’m a misfit
I’m a misfit
Nobody likes me ’cause I’m different
I’m a misfit
I’m a misfit
I’m a misfit
I'm a misfit baby